My daughter cried herself to sleep on Friday night. She laid in my arms and cried because she missed her daddy. I felt sympathy because I miss my daddy too. My daddy died six months ago prior to his death he was in my life daily. We either spoke on the phone or saw one another face to face. He was one of those daddies; he was my mentor. I miss him and like Kate I often cry myself to sleep because I miss his presence in my life.
Kate's daddy is a deadbeat, alcoholic, narcissitic idiot. He called me on a Wednesday over a month ago and told me that he was having a hard time and needed to see his family so he would miss his visitation with Kate that next weekend. Hum...needed to see his family? Kate's not his family? He also said he would just take her the next weekend an idea that I quickly rejected because it was my weekend and we had plans to visit her grandparents; his parents. He promised he would call and see her during the next week and then he would be available to visit with her his next scheduled weekend.
The next week and a half passed and he never called, texted, or a sent smoke signal. I texted him eleven times and left five voice messages simply asking if he planned to get her for his next visitation and to check on his child support payment which I hadn't received. He didn't respond. Finally on the Wednesday prior to the weekend he was scheduled to have Kate he called and left a message; he spoke about his life and how he was working with a sponsor, going to meetings as well as being treated by a doctor. Never once in the message did he ever ask about Kate. He left a number where he could be reached which I called three times and also sent a text to. It's been a week and a half and I haven't heard a word from him. Obviously he didn't get Kate that weekend for her visitation with him.
She started school on Monday. She's had some rocky times as all four year olds do the first week of school. He hasn't called, texted, fax or sent a smoke signal to check on her and her progress. Some of her issues this week are about his absence in her life. She is easy to cry and so am I. I worry about her because I love her so much and I want so much for her and her life.
But I know in the end She's going to be fine because she is like her mommy. She's a strong, courageous woman; she's a survivor. She's amazing :) She's Kate. Can I say more?
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I don't know many people I respect and admire more than you, Red, and if Kate has even a tenth of your strength she'll be just fine. Big hugs to you both.
I completely agree.
I'm sorry. But Kate sounds like an amazing person. The fallout of alcoholism is a terrible thing.
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